Hummingbirds

Oh my goodness ! A hummingbird just flew in through the patio door, buzzed over my head over to the other side of the room, buzzed right over my head again on it's way out ! Wow !

Linux....among other things

So ...I've got this new operating system Linux taking up my time and confounding the heck out of me. I've been busy learning about new file types, and how to install, move, copy, and manipulate files without click and point interface all over again. It brings back some serious memories of reading programming code to my mother nearly 20 years ago...(probably closer to 15). Also, it feel more satisfying ( at least for now ) to actuall tell the computer what to do instead of just clicking and dragging.....**note to self: clean keyboard cause it's infested with little tiny ants**...One problem so far is that I'm still trying to install my video card drivers correctly. Another drawback is trying to access all of the files I saved through windows. Apparently I don't have permission to read my own files under Linux...I'm working on it though.

Also going on is some problems with Luci. I know I haven't really mentioned her in a while. We've been talking a bit, and arguing a bit more, but that's typical recently. The other day we had a big discussion where basically she told me to screw off. I told her I'd like to be her friend, but I don't want to be her shoulder to cry on when it comes to matters between us. She seems to take it that I don't want to be there at all for her. How can I get her to see that in order for her to start getting over me she needs someone else to discuss all this with besides 'me' The way I look at things, it'll be harder to get over me if I'm her emotional support in all this. Am I wrong in the way I see things? Or is she letting her emotions cloud her thinking?

I've a long list of things I want to do. A lot of them are to do "one day" as in *"One day I'm going to... :update my photosite "learn Japanese and sign language :go to Japan and live there a few years"* You know..."one day." Whether the day will actually come for a lot of things on my list (which grows longer by a few things every week), I don't know. I hope that they will happen, but a lot I don't expect to happen. *Hope, but don't expect* Words I tend to live by I think. I have my dreams and goals, but if they don't come true, I'm not going to be that disappointed by it. It's not that I failed at anything; it's just that things in life didn't exactly go my way - things didn't fit to MY plan. Which kind of slides me into another point. I don't let a lot of matters affect me. I try not to get upset much because in the grand scheme, there's not a lot that should. If something happens that doesn't make you happy, then either ignore it, or change the situation a bit so that you are. You don't always have to agree with things. Sometimes acceptance is all it takes. Once you accept a situation and see - actually see - where you are at, you can move to change it.

So, I've a long list of things to do. I prioritize with a combonation of what makes me happy, what really matters at the moment (cause this always changes), and what is in my ability to accomplish.
Right now, jumping on the trampoline in my backyard fits all three of these criteria. Then macaroni and cheese for lunch while reading up on Linux.

So I hope this brings some brightness to your day M. I've updated my blog *wink* That goes for any one else out there that was missing the random words of my life.

Till next time...
Chris

Projects...

"So here's the earth. Chillin'. DANG! That is a pretty schweet earth you might say..."

Wonder what that goes to...check out this link. It's a flash animation that no one knows who the maker is. But it's friggin hilarious

Which brings me to my point of this post. I'm planning on learning more on FlashMX. Hopefully creating some good (or bad) animations and stuff for everyone to see. Also I want to work more on a few 3D modeling programs that I have. A little more complicated than FlashMX but cooler in the long run - hopefully end up making Pixar quality stuff.

All of these will be after my newest task. I have and am downloading a few versions of Linux. For those that don't know Linux is an alternate operating system - most people have Windows, because that's what usually comes provided. It's supposed to be better than Microsoft Windows from what I hear because it's open source - which means you can change anything you want if you know how. Also it's FREE. Totally and completely. It is apparantly for the people, by the people.

So I may be on and offline a few million times while I install one system after another and possibly back again and try to figure out which one I like best. Bear with me.

And for all those that were concerned about the missing pair, we have resurfaced. The van's inspection took longer than exppected, so we ended up being late for the movie (came in at the opening credits) and ended up shopping and eating afterwards. Although it's great to know that your cared about...good gravy! Lot's of drama went on the other night.

So I'm off and away to fiddle around with computer things I hope I know enough about. Til next time I talk to all ya'll and see the ones that I see, take care everyone, and be safe.

Chris

Back from VA

ahhh.....I love the beach. Great stuff, that salty water with the waves, next to the sand with the things living in it. And to make it even better, I was there with Bean, her mom and family. There were a few big discussions, but overall it was a really good time. The Hard Rock Cafe - which is awesome in general - has a really awesome crew at the Myrtle Beach location. Rocks!

Well I'm back at home now. Now to start looking for books for school, and a part time job somewhere possibly - or maybe trying to sell some photos I've taken. Also on my list of things to do is find a new program to help me updat me webpage and photos at

Well, I'm going to go strip down and start a load of laundry before taking ashower and washing my hair. It still feels kinds icky from the beach. While swimming in the ocean makes my hair look really kick-ass, it does leave it feeling totally gross for quite a while.

Talk at ya'll all later! Time for cleaning after the trip !

Chris

Out in VA - cont.

okay....let's try this again now that she's down for the night. Getting up super-kinda early to head to Myrtle Beach for the fourth. Bean has so much personality at one. She know what she wants and isn't happy til she gets it alot. Hopefully she goes far in life with that kind of drive. She also loves to be outside. Almost sure as rain if she's fussing and you bring her outside, she'll calm down and be alright playing with a tree or splashing in the li'l plastic pool.

After we get back from the beach there's not much time left for me here in VA, but I'm going to try to find a program to help me update my webpage at tripod and post new pics of Bean from my trip here and at the beach.

On semi-personal notes...Luci and I shared a lot of truths. Most of it I should have told her a long time ago. I was trying to protect her feelings by lying to her, and it ended up biting me in the ass. It's something I do a lot, but have recently been trying to remedy. It's a slow journey, but I think I'm making progress. I think we're both going to make it through everything - each in one piece? I hope so.

I don't like hurting - for me or for others. Such is life, and we do what we can.
Good intentions and bad judgement curse us all.

Til I get back to my computer, I'll take care and all ya'll do the same. Be safe out there in the world. It's a screwy place. Gwahahaha ! Ha !

Christopher J - nekkid and free !

out in VA

Hey every one out there who reads my blog....well nevermind..gotta go ...Lillian's fussing